Lamar hears his dad leave in the middle
of the night again. He waits a few minutes until he knows Damon isn't
going to run back in the the house because he forgot something. When
he know it's clear, Lamar grabs his flashlight and goes to his dad's
room.
Lamar's on a mission tonight. He knows
his dad is hiding something from him. A new game. Maybe new clothes.
Something.
He starts searching through his closet,
between clothes and on the bottom shelf. Nothing. He drags a chair by
the door to the closet so he can search up top. He finds an open
lockbox and searches.
All that's in there are the birth
certificates and bills and rent receipts. He puts the contents back,
and as he's getting off the chair, he notices his dad's bottom drawer
is slightly open.
Lamar goes to the drawer and begins
searching.
The first thing he finds is his dad's
9mm. Even Lamar knows better than to touch it. More searching, and
Lamar finds several stacks of money. His eyes bug out; he's never
seen that much money before. On one of the stacks he sees a note:
“Very soon.”
“If you're gonna be nosy, you gotta
get a dimmer flashlight, babyboy.”
He freezes. The woman's voice is soft
with a hint of humor. Lamar turns to look at the black silhouette of
the woman standing in the doorway.
“I saw the flashlight through the
curtain as I came up. Thought you had some unexpected company inside,
so I snuck in through the back door with the spare key.” Lamar sees
something in her hand by her side; a 9mm like his dad's.
“C'mon, close things up and back to
bed.” He does as he's asked.
“Who are you?”
“Your babysitter.”
“My babysitter.”
“Problem?” Same 'do what the hell I
say right now' attitude just like his dad. He knows better than to mess with her, if
she's his dad's friend.
Lamar shines the flashlight on her gun.
She takes the hint and puts it behind the small of her back. He walks
past her to his room, not looking up. When he gets to his room, he
flicks the light on and turns to look at her.
She's his dad's type; dark-skinned and
Mexican, long black hair pulled into a ponytail with several loose strands draping her face, and a beautiful face
with full lips. But it's her eyes that catch him. Hazel, hawk-like
eyes that show she's not to be fucked with. And something else. Her
eyes look familiar.
“What's your name?” Lamar thrusts
an open hand to her.
“Me llama Elyssa” she says smiling,
shaking his hand. “Proper just like your papa, I like that.” She
can't help but smile. Elyssa puts an arm around him. “C'mon mijo,
time for bed.”
He climbs back to bed, feeling safe and
relaxed with Elyssa there. She pulls his covers up and kisses his
forehead. Just like a mother.
“Elyssa?”
“Yes?”
“Is my dad okay?” Lamar hesitates
asking, but why would he get a babysitter this time of night? If he
has a new job, that's cool. But to have a babysitter with a gun
watching him?
“He's fine, babyboy.” Elyssa sits
on Lamar's bed, gently rubbing his hair. “Your dad is trying out a
new job tonight, a delivery job.” Lamar looks at her
unconvincingly. She sees the look, and quickly smiles. “He'll be
alright, and he'll definitely be home tonight.”
“How did you meet him?”
“You trying to avoid sleep, papa?”
“No, just wanna know how you know my
dad.”
“You scared of me?”
“A little.” Lamar buries his face
under his blanket a little. “But I also feel I can trust you.”
Elyssa smiles, taking off her jacket,
tossing it on the floor and lays on her side facing Lamar. “I've
known your dad for a long time, before you were born. Back when we
were both wild and bouncing together.”
“Bouncing?” Lamar gives her a queer
look.
“We were bouncers at a club,”
laughing more at his look. So much like his dad. “He was
working at the club already when I got hired on. I've always liked
hanging with the boys, so I figured get a job with the boys while
going to school, and where I could kick some nalgas.” Lamar
laughs at that. “Not many people in this city have seen a girl be a
bouncer, but many learned the hard way when it came to messing up in
the club. Damon gave me a chance where others wouldn't. We had each
others back hardcore back at that club, given this is a college town
and those putos or putas never fought alone. We became
know as the Dynamic Duo.”
Neither realized
they were holding hands while she told her story. The more she
talked, the more he felt at ease, and the more she felt...familiar.
“Did
you and dad date each other?”
“We
have a bond, mijo. I love your dad very much. He's always been good
to me, and I'd do anything for him.” It's then she realizes
that her and Lamar are holding hands, and she fights back the tears.
“Including you.”
“But
you don't know me.”
“I
know enough. I've been around since you were born. My job took me
other places, and couldn't see you grow up the way I wanted to.”
Lamar sees her get sad. He holds her hand tight and smiles at her.
“Things
happen, right? Maybe you had to go away so you could find us again.
Dad said if you love something, you have to let it go. And if it
comes back, you know it's yours.”
“Damon
says that, huh?”
“Yup.”
“He
got that from me.” Lamar smiles and doesn't let go of her hand. “I
had to teach your dad to be gentle, when so many people used to treat
him like crap back then and take advantage of him for being a good
person. So I hope you know that no matter what happens in life,
mijo, your daddy loves you. I--”
“I
wish I had a mom who'd love me the same,” Lamar cuts her off from
nowhere, surprising her. “It's always been us, aside from my
ex-stepmom. I thought she cared. She said we'd always be friends. She
hasn't called me once.” Lamar's tears flow. A beast twists in
Elyssa's soul seeing him cry.
“You
did nothing wrong, you hear me?” Elyssa's voice gets a slight edge
to it. “Someone weak can't be with someone strong, and you and your
dad aren't weak. Not by a long shot. It takes a real man to do what
he's done. Taking care of a child is hard work, and he's done right
by you. You did nothing wrong.” Elyssa wipes his tears and kisses
his forehead. “She's missing out. Her loss. Understand?”
Lamar nods yes.
“Still hurts, though.”
“I
know, mijo. Growing up sucks at times.”
“Tell
me about it.” Lamar hesitates asking her something and Elyssa sees
it. She smiles at him, letting him know it's okay to ask. “Will you
sleep in here tonight?”
Elyssa supresses a
Joker grin, instead she kisses his forehead. “Gonna go make sure
the house is locked up, okay? I'll be right back.”
“Okay.
Hurry, though.”
Elyssa's emotions
run overboard as she gets up and moves around the house checking
windows and turning off lights. After checking the front room door
to make sure it's locked, she turns and sees a picture of Damon and
Lamar on the wall, both a few years younger and smiling.
Elyssa
runs her finger over the picture, dust collecting on the tip. Still
not much of a cleaner, baby. She
laughs to herself at that thought as past memories flood in; of a man
who treated her right and protected her; their first kiss and love
making together; her mess-up of asking Duval for a loan for school,
and the means of paying it off to him for exchange of keeping it
quiet from Damon and guilt behind it; the happiness she felt when
they found out she was pregnant and the promise of the family she
always wanted; the betrayal she felt from Duval when he told Damon
that she's his employee for the next few years because of the loan,
and the loyalty and boundless love that grew for Damon when he said
he'd always be there for her, but had to make a life for Lamar, which
she understood; the image in her head when she kissed and held Lamar
one last time before leaving to honor her debt to Duval, and how much
she absolutely hated herself for the next nine years for leaving them
behind.
Elyssa didn't
realize she was crying until she blinked her eyes and mascara blurred
her vision. She goes to the bathroom to wash her face, hating the
reflection looking back at her as she dries her face.
She goes to Lamar's
room, pulls her cellphone from her jacket to see if there's any
messages, then lays back down next to Lamar...who finally goes to
sleep. She cuddles him and kisses his forehead.
Never again, mijo,
her thoughts as she drifts to sleep. I'm back and not going
anywhere. I love you and your dad too much. My family, my
responsibility now.
40 minutes later
Elyssa is having dreams of a wedding in
the woods when her cellphone wakes her from her sleep and to a dark
room. It's Damon.
“What's up, D?”
“Get Lamar and get out the goddamn
house! Duval's boys think we pulled a fast one. We've been set up.
Get out the house now!”
“Plan A, just like you said. We'll
meet you there!” Hanging up the phone, she reaches for her gun
lying behind her and places it in the holster to her belt behind her
back. She quietly—yet quickly—puts her shoes and jacket on.
Elyssa leans in towards Lamar, shaking him gently while talking in
his ear.
“Wake up, babyboy. We gotta go meet
your dad.”
Lamar stirs quickly and sits up. He
rubs the sleep from his eyes. “Why so late? Is he okay?”
“Not so loud. You gotta talk low or
whisper.” She reaches for his cross trainers and hoodie and helps
him put them on. Standing up but still crouching, they make their way
through the dark hall like thieves. She carefully looks around the
corner where the kitchen meets a back door, and through that door,
the laundry room and the main exit door. She notices the window in
the laundry room is cracked open, and she hopes no one is outside
waiting.
Elyssa pulls out her gun, looking at
the window and back door for a bit longer. Nothing, all is quiet.
Lamar's grip tightens. Elyssa looks back and smiles at him. That's
right, girl. Let him know you're both gonna make it through this
shit. A final look at the back
door and she pulls Lamar along, keeping quiet and low.
They pause in the
laundry room, her instincts telling her to look behind them. Lamar
confirms those instincts; there's an outline of a human shadow
outside the window. Elyssa feels her son shaking. She looks at him,
eyes bugged out and mouth drawn tight. She motions for him to back
up, but he doesn't move; he's too scared. Elyssa turns and puts her
forehead to his, giving him a reassuring smile, which Lamar returns.
She slowly backs them out of the laundry room and into the kitchen,
hugging the wall on their way out.
Elysa almost drops
her gun when she hears the front door knob jiggle.
Then the back door
knob.
She
carefully pushes Lamar into a corner and covers him. Elyssa has to
force her hand from Lamar's grip, but grabs onto her arm. I'm
sorry, baby. This isn't the reunion I planned. Elyssa
screams and cusses at herself in her head as she reaches toward the
bottom of her right pant leg, slowing taking the dagger out is
sheath. She looks at the dagger that Damon gave her long ago, and the
lesson behind it:
If I teach you how
to use a knife, it's for keeps. It's more real that a gun. You pull a
knife out, you mean to take someone's life, or to protect your own. A
knife is personal. It means you're ready to kill for you family or
someone you love. You still want me to show you what's up?
Always.
She holsters her gun and turns to Lamar, talking low. “I'm getting
us out of here. I promised I'd do anything for you, and it's time.
Curl up in a ball and stay still. Close your eyes and cover your
ears. You're not watching this.”
“I don't want you to go! Please, stay with me!” Lamar deathgrips
her arm, not letting go. “Don't leave me like Wilda did!” Elyssa
fights tears and hugs her son. She hears the back door knob being
jimmied. The beast twists in her soul again, and she's ready to
fight, to survive...to kill for her family.
“Stop it.” Elyssa forces him back, glaring into his eyes. Lamar
knows she's beyond serious and listens. “Eyes closed, ears covered.
Time to be tough, that's it. We're getting out of here, but you're
listening to me.” She hugs Lamar as he pulls back, curls into a
ball, covering his ears and closing eyes.
Duval's boy enters the jimmied door, gun in hand, looking around. He
spots something on the floor ahead of him, squinting hard to make out
what it is. He walks forward, gun with silencer in hand and aiming at
the object. He walks through the threshold, failing to see the other
object on the ground next to his gunhand.
Elyssa kills him in 7 seconds.
She's poetry in motion, grabbing the gun and squeezing the hammer
with her right hand, driving the dagger through his chin, his mouth,
his skull with the other hand as she rises from the floor; rushes the
invader to the wall while twisting the gun to his chest while gliding
to the trigger and shooting once; removing the dagger from his throat
and stabbing him in the side of his chest; before falling to the
ground, Elyssa pumps two shots in his throat. Lamar jumps as the
invader hits the ground, banging his arm into the wall hard.
The front door busts open, the door knob clattering on the floor and
someone stands in the doorway. Elyssa aims the gun at the sound as a
shadowed figure appears at the door and aims a shotgun at her.
There's a whisper in the air.
A shot rings out.
Then all is quiet...
I am *LOVING* this story! Keep it up!!
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